I have had a weird sensation from my gut lately. I have felt I have things to work on and my gut has been telling me. I have been reading Cliffs Notes from Reddit on Jung and plan on diving in to his actual work pretty soon. Having said that, I have sensed some generational themes, as both my grandma and dad dealt with alienation from society (and with my grandma from her family), I personally kind of fear society's anima (despite feeling the positive aspects of it besides the negative), and I feel like I need to fulfill a generational wish in my family. Also sometimes I project my mom on to people of the opposite sex.

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Sometimes when I am trying to do something I feel like something comes over me to get it done, not controlling, but I feel like I can do stuff I think I would not be able to do. I am sorry I might sound like a crackpot (especially compared to a lot of posts), so again if I sounds like a crackpot that is fine as sometimes I feel that way too.