I'm a 19 year old female and recently I have had so much shit going on I've been on autopilot unable to even comprehend the things that's been happening. I do not want sympathy and I am not playing victim I just need some motivation or advice. I already have been beaten on before when I was 15 in a relationship and I've been on the street since around then too because when I was little I wasn't supposed to go out of the house and then I did and I wasn't allowed to come back. I really just wanted one night outside of the house I was tired of seeing the same 4 fucking people for 6 years then my parents pulled me out of school. I was unable to talk to people I was only allowed to go to the park for one hour a day. I am not complaining because I never was a good kid but its 7 years later and I cannot get them to believe or prove to them that I am not the 14 year old me anymore. I have just been staying with friends and random people to get myself together because I know my parents more than likely aren't helping me bevause of how bad I was but also because I don't have a car or apartment yet and because I still don't have any money. I've always worked a job since I was a kid and I have all my documentation but I just a week ago ended escaping a relationship with my ex who is 20 years older than me because he started hitting me. He told me to let him lead and provide and that a womn like me shouldn't have to work a day in their life and I believed it and et him take care of everything. It ended up turning into me not being able to leave the house and I couldn't even leave the room to go the bathroom or work a job and I left a day before his birthday and moved two hours away. Nobody believes me and I have all the proof to show it and nobody even cares if I'm on the verge of suicide or hurting myself. I have a daughter that I had when I was a teen, and when she was born my mom and dad told me that they couodn't put her on the insurance unless I gave them full custody and that simplly just wasn't true at all. Theres a plan that allows the grandparents to put the grandchild on the insurance and instead they took custody from me. I currently have joint custody of her and was told everything IJ need to get her. I literally just need an apartment and a car. My mom and dad told me that once I hit 18 that they are not obligated to take care of me. I know being an adult is about life beng hard and shit but I haven't had a fucking break. I want to be alone and by myself I am tired I have been through enough. He was busting my head open and bruising me up and just YESTERDAY the bruises he left are finally coming off. My mom doesn't even drive my only brother is deas, I can't even ask my parents for $100 wihout them reminding me of some shit I did when I was fucking 14 then they call me a terrible mom and selfish and say I don't do anything. I got here a week ago and I already printed out my managers resume and got myself some interview clothes but I am just tired I have no clue how I'm even still able to function. My dad works for the government and my mom has their ownn business and they know I work jobs aI worked 2 jobs and still needed a little money one time for groceries and they just say s it ike you should've thought about that before you did this im like fucking 6 years ago? are you serious rn? They have a spare car that works completely fine mind you NOBODY ELSE DRIVES AND MY DAD ALREADY HAS A CAR. I have two autoimmune diseases and im the only fucking kid left and the entire family thinks im okay when im really not. I get in trouble if I ask my grandma for money and I am literally just about to snap out. I've been managing it so well but I can't. I started selling myself at 15 when i had to leave and everyone thinks im fucking fake or bullshitting. I didn't ask to be here at all i feel like I have to rob a fucking bank or something