I have no one else to ask. If I asked my actual parents they'd burn me alive for the very idea that I participate in intercourse activities, so I definitely don't want to do that.

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I've been feeling like I'm in a serious haze for the past 2 days. I have trouble focusing, like my eyes don't want to recognize things as quickly as they used to, and generally I've been a little more sluggish and slow than I usually am. I've also been dealing with some appetite issues where I haven't wanted to eat anything other than steak (no joke), and occasionally a snack (like Doritos). I don't really feel like doing much, and even though there's a bunch of shit I should get to, it feels like the more I push myself, the stronger the haze gets. Even writing this post is taking energy. The words blur together a little, and it's weird.

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I ate a bowl of cereal, some steak, and half of a breakfast sandwich today. It's actually an improvement from the past few days, but I'm still very underweight, sitting at 108 lbs while I'm 5'4". I'm definitely not gaining weight, that's for sure.

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I've been getting only about 5 hours of sleep on average for the past month or so. Sometimes less. I was living in my car for a little bit with my ex, so my sleep schedule got really disrupted since there was barely enough space for the both of us to sleep, and my ex seemed to feel more like shit when he was awake than I was, so I would prioritize his comfort in the car to the detriment of my own sleep health.

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Now that I'm with my partner in a bed, I'm STILL only sleeping about 6 hours at max. I'll go to bed at 2 and wake up at around 7:45, regularly. I've only been here for a little over a week, but even still I feel unable to return to sleep in the mornings. It's really frustrating and I just want to make the haze go away, but after being up for about 5-7 hours, I'll usually feel it come back really strong. I've been making sure I come back by 3 pm so that I'm not driving feeling like this, but that's a stopgap solution. Sometimes I have to leave after 3 pm, and it's hell driving like this. It feels really dangerous.

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I love spending time with my partner and I love the way he makes me feel, all the time. Our sex is magical to me, and so far not a day goes by that I don't want to feel him when we're in bed together. However, with my fatigue, he's been pretty cautious about having sex with me since I'm not feeling like my optimal self. I want to ignore that, and just spend some time making love with him, but I worry that if I tell him how I'm feeling, he's just going to tell me that I should rest and shouldn't be having sex with him until I'm better. I don't know how long my recovery time might be, so I'm getting a little frustrated.

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How bad of an idea is it to have sex like this? Should I be fully honest and tell him everything I'm feeling? Is it an asshole move to fuck when you're not feeling well?