The day before yesterday I literally could not sleep at all.

It was mostly my fault because I was questioning my entire existence and started learning about every occurrence and possibility about death and stuff. But I still couldn’t sleep even if I closed my eyes for 30 minutes.

Yesterday? Did I even sleep? Idk tbh.

Now today, couldn’t sleep all night and all morning, so I just started looking up and learning if the Jesus Christ is even real? And if Christianity is even real.

I did learn that the Jewish people didn’t accept Jesus as the Messiah because he wasn’t a military, political man who fight for the retrieval of Jewish Land.

I also started learning everything about Ghosts and stuff. Seems pretty cool, read a bunch of peoples communications and encounters with ghosts from bad ones to really cool ones.

Makes me want to talk with one, I was scared all night tho cause I was reading like really bad stories about some.

But yeah.

I almost fell asleep on my chair right now, ofc right now. When I’m studying for my exam.

Well I did for like 2 minutes then woke up like I was revived or something.

Hopefully I can sleep tonight. I was given some hydroxyzine a month ago but they never really worked until like 3 hours later and made me feel like absolute shit the next day. Which was the worse.

Anyways ima get back to studying before I fail.

I think I’m addicted to being stressed? Idk seems kinda odd but i might ask my doctor.