I just don’t understand it man, why am I just not enough for him. It’s like the more I try, the more it hurts. Cause I will try so hard to get him to love, care, and treat me exactly the way he so willingly treats every girl he interacts with. He will compliment, engage, initiate, and every other way a guy can make a female feel so pretty, valued, loved, adorn… but never me. He did it one point. For a very short time actually. And now it’s only a memory that I’m really starting to even forget about lately. Oh well, just trying not to dwell on this whole situation and move on from it but it’s so difficult. If anyone wants to help keep me company and keep my mind off of him, I’d appreciate it. And fuck it let’s smoke some ice and see where it goes from there. Really bummed cause he was probably the best dick in my life. We vibes and the connection was definitely there but knowing he’s constantly trying to get that same connection from all the girls he’s trying to chill with just makes me so sad. We were best friends and comfortable to do or say anything with each other. He got me into deep throating and I started to take pride in how well I am starting to get but I don’t even wanna practice with him anymore because only god knows what he’s doing all the time. But I’m always up for trying new things. I’m down for some light bdsm play maybe one day. But what really gets me off is deepthroating while having the most intense orgasm. It’s like no other feeling… oh well.

I’ll let you know a few small details about me and maybe you can tell me if any of these things may be the reason for him looking else where: 30 yo, recently gone brunette but going back to blonde very soon(I miss it!) , blue eyes, white girl, pierced nipples, 36D, deepthroat enthusiast, 5’3, shoe size 7, love communication and exploring new things! I stay in Covina and can host or go to you, let’s get back at it