(Skip to Second Paragraph to Skip Intro) I’ve been around Reddit since 2017 initially using it as a boost for my YouTube channel because I found other popular music youtube artists were using it. Initially I had heard it was toxic but the past year or two maybe, I’ve used it increasingly more. But I suppose all subs of each social media have their toxic people.

My now best friend got me into MBTI years ago like Summer/Fall 2011 and he already knew he was a infj except he was a 1w9 enneagram. While later on I found out I’m a 3w4. During those years I felt much less attached to the real world in a I don’t want to deal things mindset I became much more of a musical neet then turned into kind of an actual neet. It was like a sort of cloudiness a sort of exhaustive reverie and I never seemed to have energy it was secluded yet languid and maybe feverish and faint.

Fast forward to working in fall 2014 and as you can imagine I was an anti aware mess and had the span of a gnat remembering things or organizing. I also hit my head on a van metal latch the second month jumping in and unloading things haha only from me. I never went to get it checked btw iced it and thought it was fine now a days idk. I got laid off a few months later, tried to get a band together being the leader/failed and kind of self dozed myself with taking a bunch of Benadryl and binged games (Mainly Tales of Xillia & Madden 15 if you’re wondering) after buying a ps3 from my then kite of a friend. And yes 2014-15 winter was probably one of the most depressing periods of my life.

Fast forward to Spring April/May 2015 I became on call for that job and came in being the third help and eventually became a full fledged employee for them as I proved myself capable with lifting, sales and audio engineering. Although still wonky around the edges I started hitting up cons like Magfest, Otakon in 2016. I got a sick guitar from that job, started playing a game series called Persona and even felt myself being a little more socially active. I even picked up a hobby in cosplaying when a new Persona game came out in 2017!!

The following year 2018 was a lot of the same as the previous 3 years except for the fact I got fired that fall probably from bringing my emotions to the work place and throwing small shade at my manager. Anyway I spent that winter kind of obsessing over making a playlist for a con coming up and I was just sifting through Japanese Metal like crazy which I didn’t usually binge Metal.

Late 2018 was set by getting a job referral by a friend. I took an interview at a job and put my start date right after Magfest in Jan 2019 and the job was brutally exhausting working at a front desk of a hotel with 200 room and having varying shifts from graveyard to morning to evening. After 5 months I shaved off the former to my disdain. And that year also had me hitting cons like pretty crazy, I think I hit 5 that year. I ended up hitting a few more early 2020 then quit that job in Spring 2020.

Fast forward to July 2020 I had been taking money requests from a friend from May-August 2019 then from May 2020-Sept 2020. Don’t give people money. Anyway I had fund trouble and got a job delivering things which I’m soon to be quitting, I was a bit nervous going door to door delivering but you see people for like 2 seconds and bye. Then I got my music store job back late August, I’ve been there since and got my hours bumped up in January! Also I had been taking meds for depression from September 2020 to February 2021. I’m out of them but idk if they were ever helping but I’m getting chronic headaches again.

So the big question here is, do you think I have Depression, TBI, Untreated Stress or all three? And am I consistent with where I’m trying to go in life?

PS: Anyway I’m usually the one between me and my best friend that only writes a few sentences usually instead of six paragraphs. Hopefully this isn’t too much.