I really don't think going through the endless day to day monotony is really worth it since the best one can hope for is someone to come into their life and fill it with something other than loneliness and sadness. And there is very little chance of that happening. I am a 24 year old male and my appearance is far from what one would call handsome. Bent nose, crooked teeth, large forehead, weak chin, overbite, glasses, fat cheeks regardless of how much weight I lose, barely stand above 5 ft 5, flat ass, duck feet and slightly bent back. The only thing that doesn't make me think god literally branded ugly unto my face is that my skin is clear from pimples and acne. The last time I had a girlfriend was in highschool, and she wasn't exactly the most mentally stable person in the world. I am not fat, I do work on my body to have some defined lines but it just isn't enough to distract from my horrid face. I do try, I really do. I matched with someone on tinder a few days ago, and I was so excited because I never get matched. And she was cool. But I am not stupid. I know it was pity, and she was in a guys car the next night. I know that because of Snapchat stories. It's not that I want sex, I go to a brothel once a year on my birthday, I am not looking for a body to screw. I just want someone to care, to want to spend time with me and be happy with me and think I'm enough. I honestly don't know how it feels like to have that and I don't know how much longer I can hold out hope. So I just need to know, is it worth it to continuously feel like this, to be reminded of how indescribably hollow I feel by almost everything, for the incredibly small chance of finding that?