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Self degradation and motivation for others to gaslight me
The teacher started the class with a pop quiz. It was not a test on the subject of the class but a survey to know more about her pupils� motivations. The quiz only had three questions:
1. How is the ideal you? What traits and accomplishment you have or would like to have in order to turn yourself in the person you want to be.
2. How is the anti-you? How is the person that you definitely do not want to be?
3. Draw a horizontal bar across the page and write under the bar at the right margin �Anti-me� and in the left margin Ideal me. Then paint the bar with some color from left to right.� The more to the right that you paint means that you are closer to your �ideal you�. Paint your actual level and mark with a line where you want to be at the end of the semester.
Sara Thompson did not require too much time to answer the questions. She was a cute brunette 19 years old and starting college. Despite her beauty she was more a nerd than anything. Sara always dressed casual and conservative, normally jeans and louse blouses or shirts and never wore make up. She was very intelligent and surely was among the 5 best students her high school class. She was specially god in the English class.�
She read the first question
�Ideal me:�
For a moment Sara thought about her English teacher Ms Joana Donovan, a successful college graduate that was now teaching because her schedule as a MBA student did not allowed her other jobs. But even when she was just teaching for the duration of her MBA she did it with such professionalism, passion and authority that was without a doubt one of her best teachers. Surely Ms Donovan was close of what Sara considered as her own goal. Sara wrote:
�College graduate, wealthy, independent and secure woman acknowledged by her intelligence and preparation, with a personal presentation that inspires respect and admiration and with a well remunerated job in which she could put all her skills and knowledge in use.�
�Anti me:�
Sara smiled and thought to just put a simple word: �Bimbo�. But then she remembered that she was on English class and decided to verbalize a little more:
�A drop out, dumb, ignorant and insecure who dress like a slut and depends on whatever she gets from the men she dates; A person who do not focus herself on her goals and don�t deserve the respect of others. Stuck on a bad pay job or worse�
Sara drew the horizontal bar and thought about how much to paint. In absolute terms she was far from her �ideal me� but she considered that was more an effect of her short age than any other thing. After all she was already an intelligent and successful student and was recognized as such by the school community, she also had the right attitudes and goals. Then she thought about her �anti me� and concluded that she was far away from it. So after a brief time Sara painted around 80% of the bar.
After some minutes the teacher said. � Please make a copy of your answers and give it to me. You will conserve the original to set your goals for each month accordingly and to track your own advances. I hope this tool will help you to keep you focused on your dreams and to be a mean to reach them-
At the end of the class many of the students were chatting about the quiz. Some had written that her goal was to be a professional player of one sport or the other, some others had put themselves as doctors, lawyers, TI professionals, etc while others simply as future millionaires or members of the jet set. The common denominator for the �Anti-me� of most men was a poor wimp and for the ladies a poor old maid.
Katy and Lisa two popular cheerleaders had answered the test mainly with jokes and were chatting between them saying their ideal was to be married with a very wealthy and handsome man. Sara smiled inwardly and thought � Sure if they did not find a guy with enough money they would end poor, so better keep working with the poms poms and the cheers and hope to catch a man before is to late � Suddenly there were laughs followed by an awkward silence and everybody turned to see Sara. She was surprised and then realized that she did not just thought but actually spoke her opinion. She blushed, apologized and repeated that it was a joke and did not expected that anyone would hear it.
Katy and Lisa did not say anything but their eyes looked like knifes ready to cut Sara�s body in little pieces. Finally somebody made an unrelated joke and everybody laugh again and the tense moment was broken. But Sara knew that she had crossed two of the meanest girls in College and that it would cost her on one way or another.
Sara did not have to wait for long to start suffering little acts of revenge. At Sociology class she could not find her paper. The teacher knowing her accepted her excuse and gave her chance to bring the paper the next day. Then after classes Sara went to the gym, changed into some sport outfit and made some exercise using the college equipment. When she finished she showered and returned to her locker only to find that her shorts and pants were missing. She was still desperately looking for something to wear when Katy and Lisa appeared
- �OK girls- said Sara � you already had your revenge, now please give me my pants �
But Katy replied � No Sara this is going to last for weeks and it would be a funny semester indeed.
- I already apologized; I really do not see the point of being enemies. It may be better if I do something for you. I can tutor in any class if you want - Said Sara.
Lisa looked angry and said:
- I told you Katy, look at her: She is again telling us we are some kind of bimbos that need her help to pass our test. I think we should make her life here a hell.
Sara trembled; she had managed to make things worse.
- Sorry girls. I didn�t mean that. I really want to end this. I don�t want to be your enemy. Can�t we talk it and found another solution?
Lisa said
- Don�t listen to her Katy. She is only a liar.
But Katy replied.
- I don�t know Lisa, Maybe we should give her a chance. After all it would be tiresome and even dangerous for us to be bulling her all the semester. Maybe we should compromise and have a quick solution.
Sara sighted a little relieved. Then Lisa said:
- OK I agree but we can�t let go a thing like this; it can set a bad precedent and be repeated later. I think a punishment is in order.
Katy agreed nodding and said:
- OK Sara you have two options: Option A: You apologize and accept that each of us gave you ten swats with my brush in your ass and then everything is forgiven and forgotten and everybody continues her life as before or Option B: I give you your clothes and you can go home right now but we will make your life hell for the rest of the semester. So what is going to be?
Sara did not like any of the options but if the first option was true it will only take 10 minutes or so and then her life will return back to normal, the second option could put in risk even her future; these brats can make her lower her grades and � Lisa voice interrupted her thoughts:
- What is going to be Sara? We don�t have all day.
- I�ll take the punishment - said Sara with a quivering voice.
- That is a good choice girl. We will be over soon. Bend over that bench � Said Katy.
- Can�t I have my pants first?
- We will give it to you after the punishment.
Sara walked to the bench and bended as instructed and said:
- Ok I am ready.
- No it is useless she is not repented, she keep commanding us instead - Said Lisa walking to the door.
�But Katy said:
- Wait. Maybe she does it right this time. � and then turning to Sara she continued � Sara you need to apologize for humiliating us and then beg us for your punishment.
Sara was angry but she was always focused in her goals and knew the best for her was to end this issue as soon as possible so she said:
- Please forgive me for what I did. It was stupid and senseless. Please punish me so I don�t feel so bad with this guilt.
- That is better. I will spank you first and you better thank me after each stroke- Said Lisa
Lisa took the brush and gave a strong spank in Sara�s left cheek. The panty did not help at all to protect her and Sara felt a sharp pain.
- I can�t hear you - said Lisa.
- Thank you Lisa - was Sara�s weak answer.
Lisa continued the spanking alternating cheeks and when she reached 10 Sara was almost crying; her bottom was surely bright red beneath the panty, but she was also feeling something funny besides pain, she was so ashamed because her pussy was getting wet.
When it was Katy�s turn, she was delighted seeing the flushed face of Sara. She could smell Sara�s juices and was having fun thinking � look at the independent feminist all worked up by a spanking. This is priceless.� Sara wanted to end the punishment as fast as possible she was getting more and more aroused and was afraid that the girls would notice it. At last, Katy took the brush and started to spank Sara with very strong hits that hurt a lot more than Lisa�s. But Katy was taking her time spacing maybe 20 seconds or more between hits. In the 6 or 7th swat Katy hit Sara between her legs which caused Sara to jump and started breathing fast and short because of the pain and the arousal. When Katy reached the 10th stroke, Sara was already crying and very horny.
Katy said. Well I think it is over now, unless you want more? It looks like you enjoyed it. Sara was completely embarrassed - They know � she thought. But the girls were faithful to their word; they gave Sara her jeans and let her bended over the bench (Sara did not want them to see the wet spot in her panties, although it was useless, they already smelled it).
Sara quickly dressed and marched home. When she was finally alone in her room she could not stop masturbating thinking about the punishment, the pain and the humiliation. Sara did not remember being as hot in her life. She masturbated three times that afternoon.
Something very strong had awakened inside Sara; she had not been a sexual person in the past. Of course she was not a virgin nor completely frigid, she had sex several times during high school and she even masturbate to orgasms from time to time, maybe once or twice a month, but to say it fast: Sex had never been such a big deal for her, as matter of fact sex was something usually absent from her daily thoughts. And now the events of the day had her in constant heat, and she could not think in any other thing. She surely had heard about some people that liked to play kinky games during sex but she had never was aroused by the idea and never worried to know more about that.
The next day at English class the teacher talked about some authors and in the last minutes she returned to the quiz of the last day and said:
�The quiz that you made last class is called a motivation chart. This is an instrument that can make you work to get your goals in a more deliberated and organized way. You should draw the bar each week bellow the last one and track your advances.
You should know that there are four basic forces that will help you get closer to your goals: Attitudes, skills, behaviors and achievements. You should set objectives every week on improving or developing new attitudes, skills and behaviors that you think you need in order to reach your goals. You also need to plan ahead some achievements that probe that you are indeed getting closer. The next week you will measure how much of your targets were reached and then paint a little more of the bar to the right or a little less if you think you gave a step back. Just set objectives that mean small steps in the right direction otherwise you will be disappointed for failing at reaching them�
The class ended and some of the students said they would give the method a try. Sara will definitely do it. She thought that it gave her more control in reaching her goals.
The rest of the week was uneventful. Katy and Lisa kept their promise and did not bully her anymore. Everything seemed back to normal, except for one thing. Sara was masturbating several times daily and continuously fantasized of Katy punishing her again. Once in class Katy cached Sara looking at her and gave her a knowing smile. Sara was worried by her own behavior and said to herself she had to stop. In spite of her efforts and self promises it was worse at the weekend, she masturbated again and again and even spanked herself with her brush. But it was not like with Katy, Sara needed the mix of pain and humiliation. She wanted to be spanked again by Katy, with the mocking words and hard hits. But she certainly did not dare to do anything against Katy and Lisa again, it was too risky.
On Monday Sara was getting a little distracted in class because Katy�s presence fired her fantasies. She began to daydream about being punished again. She was getting distracted by her thoughts and even missed the comments of the teacher and was surprised and blushed when the teacher asked her a question and she did not know what she was talking about. The days passed slowly specially the English class that she shared with Katy. In the afternoons the masturbation sessions were less and less gratifying. She convinced herself that she needed to be punished again in order to relaunch her fantasies. Sara remembered Katy�s knowing smile at the gym and at the English class and she thought � If I going to need someone to play with me, she is the one. She already knows my secret and she is good at punishing and humiliating. The question is how to get her to play with me. I think I would go straight to it, she seemed to enjoy it too. With her I would be also covered in the case she tells somebody: I would only have to deny it and say that she is spreading rumors because she is mad at me because of my comments of the other day. On Friday Sara could not stop herself any longer and finally decided to act. It was easier to think about it than really saying it but at the end of classes she approached Katy on the walk home and got the opportunity to talk with her one on one. She was very nervous and Katy looked amused and was thinking �Look at the girl who is going to eat the world in one bite all nervous and insecure�. Sara talked at last and said: - umh Katy� I� was thinking if you�. Could� could.. punish� punish me� again? Katy wanted to laugh loud but managed to control herself and said:
- For what?
�-� I don�t know�I am the teacher�s pet�
- Listen girl I won�t punish you for nothing. It would be like if I want to play your kinky games and I don�t.
- I thought you had enjoyed it - Said Sara meekly.
- Yes I enjoyed the opportunity to make justice and to set you up straight. That part was very satisfactory.�
Sara felt ashamed to having misinterpreted Katy and wanted to save some face.
I am sorry. I think maybe I enjoyed it for the same reason.
Katy was delighted to have put Sara in this uncomfortable position, but wanted more.
- OK if that is the case let me tell you what: I can be your supervisor. Do you remember the motivation chart that we made in English class?
- Yes of course.
- OK show it to me.
Sara was embarrassed it was a little too personal, but she showed it anyway.
Katy said
� OK. It is very interesting, I like your goals. They are very ambitious, and your �anti-me� very understandable, everybody at college wants to be far of that image, don�t they? I will help you to accomplish your goals and stay far away from your �anti me�. Every week we are going to revise this chart and if the bar moves to the left (the �anti me� side) then you will be punished, otherwise I will applaud you and encourage you to keep doing the god work.
Katy was smiling inwardly and thinking �if this bitch wants a thrill she will have to get down a peg or two�.
Sara was abated. This is not what she planed, she expected Katy to punish her for being a goody two shoes or the teacher�s pet but she is refusing to play the game as such. Surely Katy wanted to have the moral upper ground and to feel justified for her actions, even at the risk of never having a chance to spank Sara again.� It was obvious now to Sara that this is not something that both of them wanted, at least not with the same intensity. Sara was disappointed but then Katy said
� We are almost at my house. Why don�t you come with me and we can talk a bit and maybe I start your supervision right now.-
These words sent a thrill to Sara who saw the possibility of getting what she wanted in the privacy of Katy�s bedroom. So she accepted and after a few minutes they were sat in Katy�s bed. Sara was worked up just by the idea that Katy maybe changed her mind and would play the game with her. But Katy began talking, ok girl bring that motivation chart again. OK let me help you set a few goals for your next week.
Attitudes:
1.
Skills
Nothing this week.
Behaviors:
2) Not failing to deliver every single paper.
3) Dressing conservative at least half of the week.
4) Not forgetting every single day to get your books home for studying.
5) Not masturbate daily.
Achievements
6) Get a B or more at least on a single test of the week.
Then Katy continued: OK here are the rules: if you fail to accomplish any of the goals I will punish you with 8 swats in your ass for each failed goal. If you fail just one the swats are going to be with you wearing your jeans, if you fail 2 or more you will have to take off your jeans and if your fail all the swats are going to be on your naked behind.
Sara was very uncomfortable with the idea. All the goals were lower standards than she already accomplish and all were set in negative terms which made them appear as goals once you take the not word from them, but goals for moving in the opposite direction that she wanted to go. She expected to have at least an easy one that helped her get her thrill without losing anything important but every single rule was too hard when put in positive terms:
1.
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
- Well the objective number 6 was not that hard � Thought Sara who surprised herself by analyzing the possibilities. She knew she must stop right now,� but instead she said:
- OK Katy thanks for being my supervisor. I need to go home.
The things continue till the end of destruction with more and more of the characters coming in and gaslighting me