I'm in my 2nd year of med school, and it's starting to hit me that exam periods are starting to become my escape from real life. Idk if anyone else has felt this. But it's probably because I can't handle how chaotic daily life in uni is becoming and whatnot with all the drama of those around me. And exam periods help me dissociate and now, I only gotta stress about the exams. Which is so much better for me than about real life people for some reason. And the thing is, it's not like I'm that great at studying or something. I actually procrastinate SO much when it comes to studies. But once I get started and exam season starts, my attention from daily issues is diverted and there isn't any mental distress. And I have already internalised the imposter syndrome so well to the point I just wanna do well and absorb much knowledge as possible before I get out of here.

Trust me, I have people I love here but idk about any soul connections? I'm super aware of how much i overthink and it's the same when it comes to these friendships I haave as well. And a lover? PFFT never had one. So my mental health depends a lot on me being able to digest and adjust my day to day situations. But when it comes to exams, the stress goes away and exams become my life. So yeah. Does anyone else have this kinda experience? I feel like I'm pathetic lol for liking exam periods rather than being able to enjoy day to day life. But yeah life's funny as hell.