What if this is wrong? What if I wake up a few years from now and wonder what the fuck I've been doing and regret all of it? Why is this so hard? I could lose so much continuing on this path. As a "male" I have a good job, friends, family. As a "woman" what do I have? A family that thinks I'm disgusting, no job, I could get kicked out of the home I rent. Whats the point in all this? Why can't I just surpress it and never worry about it again and go about my life like it was just some stupid dream.

If I wait a few more months and change my mind my breasts will grow to much, and I'll always get stuck remembering what I should/shouldn't have. Done, but if I stop now maybe I could just forget I even started it to begin with