...this doesn't have to do directly, but it's an aspect of romantic relationships and I want to put this out there to get other folks' views on it.

My mom and I are working through types of affection, oftentimes trying stuff out even if we don't think we'll like it. We just want to look everywhere for stuff. There's some that'll probably not surprise anyone here who knows me: eating while we're intimate (we're into baby birding), watersports (we don't look at it as a dirty or degrading thing...it's about sharing our fluids that our bodies make), etc.

But one that we're trying is rough play. I want to preface this by saying that we don't hit each other, and we often go out of our way to make sure the other feels loved.

But I like the rough stuff. Not always, but it's a way for us to get out some of those baser instincts. And the issue is that I feel bad that I like it. Mom is fine...she's always been more comfortable exploring the physical end of things, but I definitely am a Midwestern rural man and affects my comfort. You'd think that growing up with her, I'd be more comfortable. But it just didn't turn out that way.

So...she's comfortable with the rough stuff, and I WANT to be, but I'm having a hard time. Does it make any sense to you guys? Does anyone else have this problem...being very drawn to something but still feel dirty or unclean because they want it?