My little sister just turned 18. She's so sweet and innocent, but I know she acts differently around her friends and outside the house. She's about to go to college and I'm really scared that I'm gonna live nightmares. She's gotten really beautiful and as she's grown has also gotten curvy, but not fat at all. She's grown in "those areas" and I'm sure other men notice. Now that she's 18 and going to college, I'm scared she'll start dressing sluttier and take advantage of her new freedom as an 18 year old college student. She seeks validation often so l'm sure she'll start seeking it more in men. I'm just so scared that l'll hear stories from people about what they did with her at a party or that l'll get a video texted to me of her getting railed or giving some athlete head. It's scary but...idk my feeling around it are really confusing.

So now, to try to control the fear, I decided to masterbate to the thought of me walking in on her getting gangbanged...and I'm scared of what it's doing to me now. I shouldn't have done that because it definitely messed with my mind super heavily.