So I was at my dads house for the first time and it was alright although it was very brightly light. I went into his bathroom and saw a pair of white calvin kleins. They were clean but I couldn't help but bring my nose up to it and give it a few whiffs. I got a little hard but managed not to get fully erect. I placed them back and then started thinking why exactly I did that.

My dad isn't the kind of guy to really like gay people or anything so why am I attracted to him? We're not related much at all, only due to my siblings (who are half related to me) being his real dad and my real dad not being related to them at all except from me. I haven't liked him at all much lately due to his subtle racist and homophobic comments but I can't help but imagine sexual things with him. I don't want to do anything because I know nothing will happen but how do I get rid of this thirst for him?