But it totally vibes with my other kinks, mainly lack of bodily autonomy. The idea that a guy so easily could cause my body to go through severe changes, that goes on for many months, and are likely to involve lots of discomfort and pain. All so he can enjoy the feeling of fucking me without a condom. The idea that I have no say in the matter. It is completely up to him.

Not only is it very degrading that I don't have the say so over my own body. But the sheer contrast between his 10 seconds of feeling good, and many months of discomfort and pain... So degrading.

And even if they promise that they will pull out, the knowledge that they might not do that after all, is degrading too. Like, not only do they knock me up against my will, they even tricked me into it.