Getting knocked up might turn your whole life upside down. The list of sacrifices you'd be forced to make is nearly inexhaustible. Derailed education or career, discomfort and pain, permanent traces left on your body, possibly even humiliation once you're so far along that everybody can tell, and they'll know it wasn't planned for.

I know you don't want it to happen. Except, sometimes you do. That's why you keep coming back here, it's the reason you're reading these words. Maybe it's just a harmless fantasy, but there's also a chance it's the only fantasy you can rely on to get you off anymore.

Even if it's become a slight obsession, you're probably not acting on it, so it's fine. You haven't gotten yourself in trouble yet. Maybe you've shared your fantasies with strangers online, or even shown off your body to see how eager they'd be to breed you. Felt intense at the time, but afterwards you disappeared for a while, might even have taken down your posts or gone so far as to delete your account. Felt a bit icky afterwards, I bet.

You might be getting laid once in a while. Staying safe as you know you ought to, always bringing a rubber with you and insisting that it's used. Except.. what if you just left it on the nightstand and waited to see if your date would put it on? And since he's a good boy he does it without being told, and it's a good thing he did, because you happened to be ovulating that weekend. Still, you feel so dissatisfied somehow, and you don't see him again.

You never feel that great after getting in bed on the first date, so you don't go on any more dates for a while. But then one night you're stuck at home without any plans, and on a whim you open up a dating app for the first time in a while, just to pass the time. You haven't really thought about it, but once again it's one of your most fertile days.

You weren't really planning to go anywhere that night, but a few hours later you've ended up in some dude's apartment, telling yourself "it just happened". You keep a few condoms in your purse, but your clothes are already scattered on the floor and he's going down on you. You're completely soaked by the time he decides it's time to fuck you, and as he moves up between your legs and descends upon you, you think for a second about staying safe, and about the rubbers in your purse.

Then he guides himself inside without hesitation, like fucking you raw is the most obvious thing in the world to him and he hadn't even considered doing otherwise. When he thrusts all the way inside you can't fight the craving anymore, it's overwhelming and your thoughts give way to involuntary moans. You don't care about the consequences anymore, you don't care about anything, except his thick cock pounding into you and how it's just like in your fantasies, only better.

You're completely caught up in the moment, but then you notice he's picked up his pace and his grunts are becoming more intense. You realize he's getting close, and it's like you're snapped back into reality as you blurt out the words "don't come inside me!". You had to say it, it wasn't even a choice, but maybe he will ignore you, maybe he wants to keep going so bad that he doesn't care.

But he does pull out. And it turns out he wasn't as close as you thought, because it feels like he jerks off forever before he finally starts ejaculating onto your body. As he does, you wonder what it would've felt like if it had ended up inside you instead. Just like before, you feel incredibly dissatisfied, you even wish you would've shut up, but you didn't.

You decline his offer to stay overnight. When you get back home you block him and delete the app. But later that night you masturbate in your bed, fantasizing about him ignoring your words and coming inside you instead. A few days later the intense fantasies fade away, and you try to forget the whole thing ever happened.

Then suddenly one day, you're back on Reddit with a new account. You've realized that you're never going to be able to give in voluntarily, so your fantasies are now centered around somebody else forcing the decision on you. You're not sure exactly how, maybe he slides the condom off in the dark, maybe he'll get you drunk or waits until you're asleep, or he simply overpowers you, pinning down your body until he's done with you. The kinds of things you can't ask for, but now you also can't get out of your head. You're out of control and don't care about the consequences anymore. You're ovulating again and you're ready to give in.

Are you going to be able to hold out this time?