I have such a breeding fetish, it's crazy. I want to pump my load into a woman. I want to feel her and claim her as mine and keep her forever. I want to protect her and care for her and be her man all through the pregnancy, filling her again and again with my seed as it happens. I want to suck on her tits and drink her milk as she feeds me while I'm rock hard inside her. I am a man, and I crave filling the essence of femininity. There's something about it I can't resist.

Background: I am a scientist. I am naturally analytical and logical. But the indescribable urge to breed transcends logic. It's such an all-consuming emotional and physical NEED to impregnate a girl. I don't know how else to describe it.

Also, I am a straight up alcoholic, and I know it. I'm even writing this drunk in the middle of the day. I have a lot of issues, I know. But the idea of dealing with that via sexual healing (cue the song) and eventually impregnating a woman who actually cares about me is my ultimate fantasy.

But at the same time, I'm terrified. I'm terrified of the responsibilities that come with a child. And at the same time, I want one, I want to be a father, I want to be that rock for a woman and support her and a baby. I want to be that guy. I want to be that man for a woman. It's existential and poetic, really.

Who else can relate? Or have I truly gone insane?