I spent my teens being a shy nerd. I was an introvert and was too shy to actually make a move.

When I traveled and went to school in my 20s. I had the chance to spread my wings a bit. I was still very modest and only went after longterm relationships. I spent 12 years in serious relationships with good men. Very handsome, put together, and kind. The sex was always amazing. I just couldn't make the commitment to have a child or take a risk. So we always used condoms or pull out method.

For the last 4 years I've been contemplating what to do. I took time to be single and figure out my own goals and home life. Covid didn't make things easier to date.

Then last year I went for it. I met someone really handsome, successful, on board with coparenting. He was the exact type I've been looking for: black thick hair, brown eyes, medium brown skin tone, healthy, intelligent.

He flew in and reserved a suite for us for the weekend I was most fertile. And we had lots of creampie sex. I was so excited to actually feel cum inside of me for the first time. We tried in multiple positions. And he even held his cock inside of me for long hours. Unfortunately.... I didn't get pregnant. He wanted to try again. But the idea of him flying in and renting a suite each time just seemed too much. I'd rather have someone near me to breed with whenever I was creamy and horny. Someone to breed with on my peak fertile days.

Sadly, I haven't found someone nearby. But I'm not giving up.