It's so hard sometimes... I used to have an IUD but my husband and I were thinking about having a kid sometime in the next year so I took it out to make it a "surprise" when it does happen.

But then "surprise" he started letting me see other people. I didn't even ask for it, it was just out of the blue and I wasn't sure at first, but I ended up enjoying it a lot... too much. My husband pulls out like he always does, so I'm not so worried about that, but now I pretty much only think about getting knocked up by one of my FWB.

The worst part is, my husband LOVES the idea. He wants me to go out with my FWB when I'm ovulating and horny. I climax so much harder when he brings it up in bed. But he doesn't know I took out the IUD yet.

And my FWB hates pulling out. So I used to let him until about 5 days before I'm ovulating. But last month, it "accidentally" was only 3 days. I think I went through $40 of pregnancy tests before my finally period came.

It's so bad. I'm supposed to be the riskiest this Saturday while the hubby is working 12 hours. I know exactly what's going to happen if I get bored for more than one minute. It's all I can think about. I want to tell him but I don't want to lose my FWB either.