I want to cry after speaking to my PCP. I know I'm not alone but it feels so awful. "You got diagnosed two years ago" yeah I told him my symptoms and he just gave me the umbrella term and hyscyamine. No follow through, no labs. "Well ibs is a chronic issue so you need to handle your stress" no shit??

Healthcare (USA) is a joke and I am both afraid to change habits and afraid of NOT changing habits. I live with parents who do not cook anything healthy, and we all have different preferences. I made a meal I thought was safe a few weeks back and it hurt me really bad and I had to throw it away cause no one else would eat it. I hate throwing away food. I see my mom eating junk and having diarrhea for a week straight, and I cannot let that happen to me.

I am working on low fodmap but it feels so lonely and painful, I'm literally afraid to eat. And I have an eating disorder. I asked for a dietician and he said those are used for people with chronic health issues, instead he is connecting me to a health education to lose weight. IDK why he shot that down when I am trying to figure out my sensitivities / triggers and a dietician can help me figure out "if you're not eating this, you can get the same nutrients from that." My weight is not my worry right now, my well-being is and I hate talking to doctors who only see me as a fat person to fix and not someone who is suffering. Starving isn't going to save me. Figuring out how I can live a fulfilling, healthy life will.