There’s this one woman (30-35yrs) in neighbourhood I’ve been seeing for years, when I was young in my early teens I used to visit their home a lot she used to pick me up and she used to kiss me on cheeks. Since I’ve completed schooling I haven’t seen her,(almost 8-10 years) I used to listen about her while society woman are talking. Recently I broke up and I was just a little distracted so I went walking in a park nearby and I saw her and I greeted her. She got so happy and kissed me on cheeks and she said “bada ho gaye ho kaafi” I used to be a nerd and I have matured parallel to what I used to be. We chit chat a bit and just went on walking on our own. The next day We met again at same park randomly but an hour earlier than the last day, there were many people walking so I sat on a bench and in few minutes she came to bench as well. She asked me about my day and about what I do now, what is happening in life. I told her about what’s happening and she directly asked me a personal question. “Kaafi girlfriends hongi tumhari to” I got a little awkward and said no no I don’t have any, I hardly have time for girls, life is already very busy and stressful how can one get time for relationships. She started telling her stories about right age and right person should come at a right time don’t waste your prime being single. You should be actively dating. Then I told her I know what you’re saying and told about break up and the story. She heard me and said the way you told me I am shocked you’ve started thinking this way at this young age. I said to her times have changed. She got a call and I started scrolling my insta she got up and left. I was still sitting she came back after 2 minutes and asked me if I want to walk with her, I said okay because I knew her since very long. We walked half park she said your voice have become very deep you used to be the shy and now look at you I am surprised by how much you’ve grown up. I smiled because I don’t know how to react to it or what should I say. We discussed about societies general scenarios and we started bitching about few people in neighbourhood, the way they keep the surrounding of their house, garbage throwing problem etc. while going back to home I told her if you come for walking daily do call me and we exchanged contacts. For couple of days, she didn’t call me, she texts on WhatsApp that she’s leaving and we meet at park. Yesterday, we met in market and went to another park which is 100 metres more far from the park nearby. That park is bigger and there are lesser people compared to other one, we completed 2 rounds continuing general talks and sat on benches and we now showing about things or experiences we’ve had. She showed me she went to some trek and while scrolling an image of her looking very good came. I seriously got shocked by looking at that picture of her. I immediately asked her “who is she”. She replied me and I said no way in a teasing way. She showed me that picture and I looked closely and I said to her you should try modelling you can be a santoor mommy easily. She blushed and laughed, something happened that moment we had a constant eye contact and she said it’s getting late let’s go, we went home. The next day I was done with my dinner and was waiting for her text but she didn’t, same thing happened the next day and I went to park and she was walking. I texted her “hi is there any problem, have I done something wrong. I’m sorry if I said something and it’s causing some problem. She responded next day and told me she’s having some personal issues and I said okay. On Friday I took off and went to meet an old friend. She met me on hinge and we’re friends for a long time and we have had many benefits in past so we spent the night together. Saturday morning I woke up with text from her, she was asking for walk and I didn’t saw that text at the time and hence I didn’t replied because I was with my friend and I forgot to reply. Around 8:30 she texted me hi are you free I replied yes, she asked me to come to her place, I went there and saw her back of the house so I went around the street and met her there and she said her husband is not at home and she doesn’t know how to drive she wanted to go to Lajpat Nagar there was some boutique from where she gave an order to take her dress they’ve made. So we went to Lajpat Nagar and while she went inside store I lit a cigarette at a distance because I was not sure of her finding it out. She called me and said to come inside, I denied but she kept on asking me to come so I went and she was wearing it and that dress had a different style and colour but it was like the one she was wearing in that picture. I am not lying I seriously thought in my head wow while looking at her. I clicked pictures on her phone she was looking so good I was feeling jealous of her husband. Anyways, she took the dress off and packed it and we went to car and as we sat she smelled cigarette smell and she said can you smell cigarette or is it just me I said must be someone smoking outside. I turned on ac and I just touched the blower and she said you’ve smoked a cigarette and she hold my hand and sniffed and she asked why did you lie and I said I don’t know. She asked me if I have any cigarette with me I said yes and she asked me to lit it and she said don’t worry I don’t judge. I offered her after 2 puffs and she said my hands will smell would you mind helping me and she smoked cigarette from my hand. I suddenly got too comfortable with her. I told her about few things I usually tell to close people. We chatted and we vibed amazingly well. I parked the car and we were in back alley of her home she asked me how was santoor model looking in the dress I told her you were looking amazing, I never saw anyone looking this beautiful. She thanked and side hugged me and went home. Yesterday, morning I had a good morning text from her I woke up late and I replied good afternoon. She sent me pictures of her in that dress standing in front of mirror, I don’t know what happened I got too much comfortable with her I replied angel from heaven to those pictures. She sent me shy emoji and kisses. We met few hours ago (10:30) we didn’t went for walk we went to park and we just had chit chat and it got very personal, there was some tension between us. I could feel it I don’t know about her but we’re getting closer in every meeting. The relation is getting deeper. I got a text from her after 12 “good night 🤭” Am I thinking too much about her or should I just go with the flow and keep it going the way it is. Am I doing something wrong? She’s married, kind of my mom’s friend and she has seen me since I was a young. I’m having thoughts of being with her.