I ( M 43 ) am a fellow hyper, and my urges comes in waves in phases, usually for long periods of time. Being in a big city and active in the kinky lifestyle previously has helped me getting what I needed ( always being careful in being safe ) but due to a relocation ( and annoyed by what the scene has become) made me stop. I have spent an insane amount of times as everyone here on every kind of porn website, incl. Reddit, but it has just turned into another kink, looking for mutual masturbation partners, fellow kinky person needing a compatible online partner. And I did find a lot, and still do it when my cravings are too strong. I really try hard to have a connection first , some emotional attachment, but it is really hard - impossible - not to give in when tempted, and it usually end up with me and my online partner cumming hard, but not really having another thing in common. I just can not say no. And I want more. They usually do not seem to understand what hyper sexuality is too. Not sure finding someone just like me is the solution either.

I am not proud of that at all. I do feel really bad at times, even if I am straightforward and never lying about it. But I crave someone submitting to me, dirty talk, being watched and watch my partner ( yes even if she is a stranger ), and all the other things that makes me feel really alive during that moment. Then I need that again shortly after.

I am trying meditation and yoga for some time, it seems to be slightly helping. Maybe it will work in the long run, but for now, it is 2 am, I am still not sleeping and looking around.

Anyone like me? Sorry for the rant.