Somewhat relevant: I’m 20M, autistic, ptsd, and anxiety. I take antidepressants. I’m not currently in therapy but first started seeing therapists frequently in 2022 for my reoccurring csa. I’m in safe situation now!

The problem: Pretty much since hitting puberty 8 years ago! I’ve been very horny! I’ve been OBSESSED with being in a relationship! I can’t force someone to love me and I can’t force a relationship to work.

What I’m doing: I’m working on myself looking in the mirror telling myself I love myself going to college engaging in my hobbies. Taking care of my hygiene. Socializing with friends and family. This is just one more thing that’s wrong with me I get anxious thoughts and worries about being alone. I feel my chest tighten and my head just going on a roller coaster. I don’t know what I’m missing that can make me just be content with what I have now! Being obsessed isn’t going to help anything.

If I don’t take myself out it’s going to be the anxiety that does it. I can’t guarantee anything. Honestly I want to be aro/ace. I’m tired of feeling this way all the time. What is it a gene a hormone? How do I get rid of this desire. Ive gone on dates, I’ve socialized in person, and I used dating apps. It hasn’t worked. I want it to be over. I’m going to become bitter hateful person that people make fun of. All because I wanna get some pussy or dick lol? How am I supposed to overcome the biological and psychological need to be with another person how do other people do it?