For the past few months I've been managing my HS pretty well. At least compared to how it was in the past. Only feeling the need to get off 3-4x a day and not at work anymore. I still had thoughts I hated myself for having about strangers innocently interacting with me.

For the past few days I hardly thought about sex at all. I didn't masturbate or even feel the need to. I didn't fantasize about people I saw/met constantly. It was so productive. I got a full night's sleep three days in a row. I was attentive at work. I even workout out extra hard.

Tonight isn't the same. I can feel the thoughts and urges flooding back. Well, it was nice while it lasted.