Long story short my gf and I had some troubles and now we're semi long distance. We see each other on the weekends only now. Since we made this decision the sex has been great. We have been sexting during the week, exacting pictures, videos, links to things etc. When we get together we are very flirty/touchy and the sex is much better than it used to be. She's been more open about kinks. She used to only want sex once every month or two, lately it's been once or twice every day I'm here. Not a ridiculous amount but I'm much happier with it.

This weekend is different. She's just not as interested in sex, which should be okay. But I'm eating myself up about it. I feel disgusting about the way Im think about her sexually, constantly. About how much I just want to fuck. About how I can't just have a good time because I need the sex so bad. The rejection is making me insecure again. I know she finds me attractive but I feel like she doesn't want me anymore.

Part of me doesn't even want to be around her because I want it so bad but I know she doesn't. I thought I was doing okay handling things finally, even on the days we didn't have sex. Not anymore.