While most guys favour girls who have some sexual experience and have done the rite of passage so to speak, I cannot help but obsess over all those girls and women who have not yet had their first chance, for whatever reason - any reason really, comes down to something in the childhood that shapes us and makes us different from the herd.

I too lost my virginity pretty late compared to those around me in my teens. My first time was shit, lasted maybe 29 seconds of 20 thrusts in all. No I don't remember, but it was very very short. Ended as quickly as it began.

So, remembering how I was not part of the herd with my first time happening so late, I feel some kind of responsibility and obligation towards the virgins who must either feel left behind or want to wait until they find the right man. I so desperately want to be that right first man to someone. I want to impart every bit of my sexual deviance to her, make her my perfect submissive partner for life and have an amazing life together.

How does it work though? You keep wishing and manifesting something long enough and the Universe grants it to you? Well it did not work with some of the other things I wished very strongly for.

I keep thinking, that only a virgin would make my perfect match because I could mould her to exactly my existence and everything sexual that I crave. Maybe if I keep saying this out loud, it will cause some chain reaction and loop back to me?

I made some posts too about virginity, I don't know how to best transmit out this desire of mine.

Whether I stab her hymen and make her bleed at our first time or it slips right in, does not matter. What I really really want, is to be her first sensation of anything human in her crotch, I want to be her first stretch of the pussy from a cock. I want to be the first thing that jams in her pussy that deep and that hard, that she feels like something is very wrong but she does not want it to stop.

I positively envy the men who snatched up a virgin for a wife and are still together. It really is very irrational, this virginity, but an obsessive mind like mine wants to believe that having a virgin is like having something that was made just for you, nobody else was meant to have her.

The other 'vanilla' subs, would not get this. Stroking to fantasies of being with a virgin girl, total bliss for me these days.

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Thanks to whoever reads.