So happy to have found this group as I always thought I was slightly fucked up. And without being rude if there's this many of us at least I'm not the only one that's fucked up.

As with a lot this started at a young age teen boy exposed to things and it flicked a switch and even from the time I got semi addicted to masturbation, porn, dangerous behaviours, luckily I was to rural so everything stayed online and I was at least smart enough to keep my face out of it. That was before I'd even got tu university. That just allowed me to continue with bad decisions struggling stay monogamous craving sexual attention etc.

Then more recently I found a Signifcanr other who luckily for me had a high sex drive but not as high as mine. And has allowed us to open the relationship. Even now I get urges to do harmful things and sometimes I stray but they are supper supportive and let me explore encouraged in a safe environment to not feel restricted which has always been a weird trigger for me.

So thanks for the group and just saying there is hope for us all out there. And if anyone wants to talk I'm happy to listen. I know everyone's journey is different but seeing that it's ok to not be OK and like the majority has helped me lots.