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Hey HSD Community:

I've read through posts in this community for a bit, I appreciate all of them - most of them are somewhat relatable.

I feel like my own story / life - HSD is a very heavy weight, especially right now.

My sex drive is raging; I'm completely and utterly obsessed with sex, and, everything sexual. 24/7. Almost non-stop.

I'm constantly seeking out other woman that share this equally hidden sex obsessed life (check my post history), and I'm so mega picky on who I hookup with, that the time commitment to searching is, a lot. Combined with getting naked as often as I can, and getting off as often as I can while I'm searching...

I'm a small business owner, and I'm doing the bare minimum to keep the business going, and I'm even starting to question that.

My exgf of 5 years was also a closeted sex addict, and the mutual release from each other was so, so immensely healing - I can't even explain how much I miss that mental and physical bond that we both shared with each other. It was so intense, and such a relief.

I genuinely feel so empty without that mutual bond with someone; I swear I search all day to find someone that's like her, to replace/replicate her.

I think when I dip (we all have peaks/waves/dips dealing with HSD), I'll miss the feeling so much that I'll want to try and get it peaking again, try and force it. I hope I stay down though, try and catchup with life - the life that I missed.

Thanks for letting me vent/rant, and, thanks for reading it.