For me when it's one of my more intense ones it tends to feel like whiplash from hour to hour. Highs of inescapable lust and lows of anger fueled dissatisfaction. My imagination runs rampant and I end up hard more than I'm not and while I try to indulge it we know that's not the best thing to do. Each day increases the capacity for bad decision making and when you know there's something you want and can't have it's easier to justify actions that keep you sane however questionable they may be. Now I'm absolutely abusing myself and unable to get the thought of a gangbang out of my head. If I hadn't torched so many one off connections I may even be able to but with a partner I have to be kind of safe but what's even the point if I can't feel multiple loads around my cock. Like if I could just be next to it masturbating it would do so much for my brain right now and can't stop thinking about it. So yeah hope your days are going well out there and stay freaky