I’m hoping that the fact this subreddit exists at all means everyone reading this also enjoys overanalyzing their behavior. Today I got on Reddit with full intention of going to DirtyR4R or something to hopefully find someone that shares in my hypersexuality that would love to get every pervy text I send. Instead, by ending up here, I confirmed my suspicion that there is a Reddit for every subject on Earth. After reading through many posts here as well as a few posts mentioning hypersexuality on some mental health subreddits, I think I think I’ve made a few correlations that I would love to get your guy’s opinions on.

I’ll spare you guys my personal story. The only thing I think may be relevant is that the last age I can remember not being hypersexual was 8 or 9. So, being raised in a strict Christian household, I was told that people who masturbate go to hell. So, this certainly didn’t come to be because I was exposed to too much sex when I was young. The “birds and the bees” talk was mainly fire and brimstone and less about how it works. Hell, the first time I came, it was an accident. I didn’t even know that I was masturbating, it just felt really good. (Weird… I thought I’d be more embarrassed to tell people that).

Lastly, I have been told by multiple doctors over the last few years that I am the worst case of ADHD they have ever seen. I currently take the maximum amount of medication to be prescribed to one person in the US.

Now, to the point. I’ve never been a good sleeper. It may be anxiety or a symptom of my ADHD, whatever. Since I was a teenager, I regularly stay up all night and constantly threw off my sleep schedule. Being a grown man with children, a career, and a mortgage means I cannot afford to sleep all day and be awake all night. So, In order to keep my schedule on track, I generally stay up the whole next day till my regular sleep time. Now, here’s what I think is interesting. That whole next day I hyper-hypersexual. I think my ADHD takes over, and rather than being super tired and going crazy, my mind can do nothing but think about sex and masturbate. That actually makes the time fly by me.
I’m really trying to understand what this hypersexual feeling fulfills though. I don’t have a porn addiction. I masturbate for days at a time without pornography. I don’t think it’s a sex addiction because, although I would have sex, I am fine taking care of myself. Going back to the reason I got on to Reddit today, to begin with. The only thing I am obsessed with is having someone I can share that feelings and those thoughts with. Which, aside from the staggering amount of times this happens, is normal. What I’m not sure is normal though is my lack of concern with who that person is.

When I was 11 or so I pointed out a girl who I thought was hot my cousin. His response was him being disgusted with me. “You’re skin crazy man. She is NOT hot”, he said. He was right. To this day it still doesn’t matter much what the other person looks like. I just want someone of the opposite sex to share in the experience I’m having. Now, I’d like to say that I’m above physical attraction and care about who the person is on the inside. That’s not the case though. I think what actually makes me turned on the most about a woman, is her desire or at least the illusion of desiring to want to have sex with me just as much, or more as I want her. And THAT is something I’m having problems coming to terms with as someone who considers himself a “descent" human being. What do you guys think? Is that healthy, or do you think it’s just a natural desire to find someone who is like you. I’d like to find someone who is just kinda always there for me to talk with when I’m going a little crazy, but does that reinforce bad behavior? Is it a bad behavior?

Sorry for the novel. I’ve just never had an outlet to talk about this before.