⚠️ This is a bit heavy. With that being said, I do want to clarify, I am NOT suicidal nor do I intend on hurting myself or anyone else. ⚠️

My life was fine, full of hope, full it potential and dreams. That all came to a stop a few years ago. Someone in my family who me I love with all my heart got sick and it’s been a long and painful few years. Sadly, this won’t be a story with a happy ending as this sickness is terminal and I’ve basically been in a state of mourning for the last few years.

My heart…. Is tired. I’ve cried more the last few years than ever in my entire life. But all this has been done in private as I am the strength for many, i am the anchor of my family, and the one people go to for help and comfort. Knowing that I have found ways of coping and letting out my pain, frustration, sadness, and overall sorrow, that’s allowed me to be as normal as can be given the circumstances. Nonetheless I’ve still held back on a few things.

It’s why I have held off on jumping into a relationship, because I want to be able to give my 100% emotionally. But I do miss the relationship perks, I want someone to cuddle and hold in silence, someone to just kiss romantically and fully embrace. I want that.

So that’s what I come here asking.

I want the affection and comfort with someone that I would have with a girlfriend. I want to come home to you and just kiss you and the moment I see you, watch a movie together while I am holding you tight and living in that moment.

I am not here to unload my sadness on you, unless you truly care to know, you don’t even have to know my story (which id only do once we’ve built rapport). I just want someone to have that affectionate escape and be of comfort to me.

Lay on your lap as you play with my hair, spoon while we nap together, have endless kisses and devour you with affection? Yes please.

Evenings are best for me, and please life near the loop.

Thanks.