Ya know I was a late bloomer. I grew up in a non-feeling/non-contact feeling. It felt like I came home to work. Chores, listening to people complain and compare their work load. I wasn't even curious about nsfw content until I was 16. I didn't even get a lady friend till I was 16. 11 years later I am stronger for it. 1 engagement, 3 LDRS and 4 local loves and this last one hurt the worse. She gave the cold shoulder and out of nowhere told me she didn't love me anymore, despite her trying to leave me for a other guy and didn't 6 months before. What I've learned is a listening friend and taking care of yourself is the best love. I may not have a relationship or a kid, but I always have someone to lean on. People don't let a ex bring you down. I had horrible hygiene, self esteem and it took YEARS to rope it in. Now I have hair, teeth and showering regiments that make me feel sexy and secure. Yes me being a mtg player, 3d printing hobbyist, video game player who's indulged in games since 5 years old... yet even with adulthood, I've pulled myself into a higher standard. Not so I can attract but because I want to look at myself in the mirror with a wink and a smile. Stay humble and don't give up. They're maybe plenty fish in the sea but a antelope doesn't fall into the lions mouth.