Like I had a very confusing childhood, but I will say, I love seeing families being families without any abusive behaviors or anything like that.

Examples:

• Saw an older couple with their 9 year old kid, where the mother was chuckling as she told the kid how she thought her dad was suuuuch a square when they first met, but by the third date and a few drinks, she saw a WILD side of him and the two had been inseperable ever since. The kid was si giddy.
• Saw a kid flailing WILDLY in public, like... WILDLY. Like, damn, I miss having that much energy! Even as a kid, I probably only had 1/5th of the energy she did, and that was on a GOOD DAY, like at Six Flags or something! And there she was, going CRAZY, but in that fun way where she was just skipping, spinning, and flailing her arms all at once. And what was her dad doing? Asking her questions, like what she'd want to do one day when she grew up, and her favorite pizza toppings, favorite food, favorite ice cream flavor. Really nice things. Not a bit of toxicity or yelling anywhere, he was just embracing his happy energetic child.
• So many adorable chubby cheeked babies!!! So many!!! Never a dull moment when I can wave at a child that's having the time of their life doing whatever and give their parents an I'm-not-judging-your-kid-I'm-extremely-happy-seeing-them-enjoy-life-as-a-child-you're-a-beautiful-family face.
• Saw an old couple that could've been in their 80s kissing. A little quick side walk smooch. So so cute.

I saw maybe 9 positive instances, and I've just got to say, it makes me want that even more.

Sometimes I see people my age and older, or even younger, go through abusive relationships, neglectful situations, and more. And I think "Damn, thank fucking God I'm single. Being single with three vibrators and an obsession with plants and knitting with a hairless cat sounds spectacular compared to the dating scene rn."

So it feels extra blissful seeing what should be more common, and I'm glad that I'm seeing positive healthy role models and people in the street embracing love in a happy and joyous manner.

I want that. Like, someone who will love me whether I'm young and slim and beautiful, or if I gain weight and age noticeably and more, and vice versa. I wanna just have a really nice pleasant love that lasts for decades, a nice family to share, a nice home, cute pleasant experiences like that, and just romance and love in general. I wanna be surrounded by it, I love it. So so much.

I can enjoy my youth and life experiences and live in the now, but it's always nice to picture the kind of love I'll experience when I'm white haired and aging. No matter what, I look forward to it, highly.