They brought me flowers that I love, held me when I cried the other day in mental duress (mental health was already in shambles, and being sick and lonely atop of that was affecting me,) and we spent a pleasant amount of time just wrapped up in blankets, talking about his favorite anime that he finished, life, all types of pleasant things. It felt nice, and I guess I just needed to take a moment to be grateful for it and appreciate the love I was shown yesterday.

Geeking out with me over toys from our childhood and nostalgic stuff to buy that would still get us lit in adulthood, (like those bubble ring toys? freaking stellar!) and the places we could go for Valentine's Day, games he can bring over on his console, home decor and on and on. It was so pleasant, you know?

I just... really find it sweet. I wanna do something sweet for them soon, like bake them cookies. I don't want him to think I don't appreciate him, it's just a bit surreal having such a pleasant day while also mildly grieving the end of something bad for me.

But it feels nice. It was so nice yesterday, that I genuinely decided "I need to block (that guy who's wrong for me) instantly, since I already know nothing else good can come from that', and he was smiling during it. Then I laid back down in bed with the guy who actually tries for me, to be the most romantic and thoughtful and kind possible, and we talked about the movie Babylon, and like.... other wonderful plans to make in the future. Like mini trips, dinner dates, really pleasant things. I love the effort they make for me and how they always wanna try to make it work no matter what happens with me.

He's also been really sweet, giving me gifts related to my interests in spirituality and little things he'd know I'd like. Yesterday he surprised me with a hot cocoa bomb.

He's such a sweetie, and I love being around him. He's so sweet. Can't wait for Valentine's day, or Wednesday if we can't make plans for V-Day due to work. But oh boy, I love this dude. Am I in love? I wouldn't say that. But do I love him as a person, and sincerely, deeply admire and care for him? Yes. Always have. He's so sweet, God. I'd kiss him now if I could, I swear. Blessings.