just turned 23 as of oct.4 and it's either my 5th or 6th time being homeless. to make a long... extremely long story short. I think the majority of shit I been through prior to graduation and after graduation has just destroyed the entirety of my hope for better. no matter which way i see it it'll either be I work to support a lifestyle i dnt wanna live or just completely suffer. I hate the fact I get so discouraged to the point all I do is smoke and sleep till I have to go to work...and because that im again homeless on day2 due to my addiction but I think it's more than just weed I'm addicted to. I was in school to be a mechanic and then one day I realized I really didn't wanna do this for the rest of my life I just wanted the money but then that wasn't even motivating enough and I hated going to school I'd either sleep the day away or just leave to go venture off and smoke.

atp idk what I care about and what I don't. I know what I want out of life and the risk to obtain that life but im so petrified at the way my life has panned out when it didn't even have to be this way my actual own self destructive tendencies may have possibly ruined the rest of my life.

As of now I reside in Jax FL in the Normandy and Lane area idk what this post is about anymore I just don't wanna be alone