I really need to move from my current area because I have no one to help me now. The people I see at Four Rivers Mental Health either can't or won't come out to help, and I need food. I can't live on my SSI check alone and am literally starving monthly, trying to make it from check to check. My residence won't let me work; if I do, they just increase the rent, and SSI reduces my check. This keeps me stuck in a cycle of welfare, which I'm trying to escape.

I'm scared and unsure of which shelter to call. I want to go either to New York, California, or back to Phoenix, Arizona to the CASS shelter. I'm not really sure because the last time I was at CASS, I was acting strange. However, I have my meds now: Vraylar, ADHD meds, and my necessary metformin. If I knew of a shelter or someone who would reach out or a shleter that would reach out to to help me, I would definitely go.

I've been applying for jobs in different states on Indeed, willing to do any work. It's just stuck in my mind that I don't want to end up on the streets again, especially after spending most of my thirties in shelters. Without a car and friends to talk to, I'm just going downhill, stuck in depression. I don't want to get anything wrong or have anyone form the wrong opinion about me.

I'm not happy where I am, and I can't afford to live in my apartment. The city doesn't have the transportation options I need to get around to a job and survive. I need to be in a place with at least a light rail and 24-hour bus transportation, surrounded by people who think logically. Not that everyone here doesn't, but I just don't feel like I belong.

With the little I get from the government , I can only save around $100 to $200 a month after paying rent ($234) and groceries. A preacher friend is helping me with a car, and there's a special program at a car lot, but they want $500 to $1000 down and need to find a car I can fit into.

I feel so sad waiting, knowing I could possibly move to a city with better transportation and actually live, not just survive. If a shelter or church reached out to help, I would definitely go. I need and want to work. I'm scared to post this because people on the web have different opinions, and some can be negative, which is scary for someone with ADHD and schizophrenia. I just know that if I stay here, I'll remain sad. I don't know why I can't just leave like everyone else.

I know I can prosper somewhere else; I just don't know how to leave at the moment or where to go. Hopefully, someone could or would reach out, and I could make a plan.