I started out just curious, seeing male family members in the nude, and with a large family it happened a lot and there was a lot that happened that didn't have a lot of filters. I grew up on a farm so I knew what sex and everything associated with it was from a very young age. At school I started looking at other boys penises but I never was able to get the courage enough to touch someone, to get a good bout of exploration done. I was invited over one night to sleep over at another boy's house for the first time, who I found out to my pleasure was also fascinated with penises. We spent all night discovering each other's bodies and I learned what I liked and didn't like about males. I got my first taste of another cock that night and I fell in love with it, and that night both a cock adoration and a cock sucking fetish was born and both have continued to today. That was the extent of our play but a lifelong obsession was born.

Nothing more about a man attracts me. Basically only that associated with playing with the cock of another man at this point is what I enjoy but nothing beyond that. I absolutely love looking at another man's cock. I love every curve and twist. I love the smell. I love the taste. I love the texture. I love the way they look in every aspect. They literally fascinate me to the point of obsession. I have also developed a taste for cum simply because it was the ultimate outcome of having a cock and cock sucking fetish, you tend to get a little cum in the mouth. Nothing above the waist am I attracted to with a man, and nothing below the balls either. It's that narrow zone of pleasure that I am always wanting in the worst way.

After years of sucking I tried anal for the first time a few years ago and found that I really enjoyed that as well. I love the feel of my prostate being messaged from the inside, especially at a decent pace. Preferably one large enough to pass the second sphincter if I can get it, it just feels that much better. Because of this obsession with cock, after playing with cock for fifty years, I actually prefer sex with a man now over a woman, especially with the oral sex which is my absolute favorite of all time. I would say I was gay if it wasn't for the fact that kissing or having any romantic dealings with a man turns my stomach. I still don't even consider myself bisexual for the same reason. I feel within myself that I am straight, just with a major cock and cock sucking fetish, nothing more. Conundrum huh...

I am happy to find other men here that have this same urge and obsession as well. I love it here.

DM open if you want to discuss this.

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