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Long story short I'm a former addict, been clean/on subs for almost 2 years. Relapsed 2 days ago on oxy and went back to subs no problem.
I have some H coming my way in a week or so and my plan is to only do it every few days (on weekends.) Since being clean I've built a very comfortable life for myself and am stable. I know people roll their eyes when we say "i'm only gonna do it once in awhile" but I legitimately think I can, and have known others who have done it on weekends who are otherwise functioning members of society. I am determined to not let myself fall back into the depths of addiction.
*please do not tell me not to use, I appreciate the concern but my mind is made up and I've already bought it*
Do you or anyone you know do this? If so, how do you stay disciplined?
I don’t know long term if it is viable but for a while I’ve been doing it on and off. I was on it 5 years straight got clean 3.5 years been off subs since the beginning of this year and I know it isn’t smart but I make myself take control with it. I don’t wanna go back to where i was and the torture of physical dependence. I don’t do it more than a couple days in a row and after I do I sometimes don’t charge my phone for days in case of cravings and drug seeking and stay in tune with myself. They say it isn’t possible so I can’t be sure, as I said, but i know I stay alert and aware of the consequences and try to be in control with opiates nowadays. I wish you well ❤️
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