Until very recently in life I was abused by everyone around me. First my biological parents then foster parents and other foster children. At some point I just gave up on living. I’ve considered ending the road here and have decided not to because of two reasons. I don’t wanna die in pain and I want to cause as little grief as possible. I’ve been adopted by a loving family relatively recently and have a comfortable life now but I would now cause a lot more pain by dieing now. So I must go on living and distance myself from everyone until I can die with causing minimum grief. For any suggestions of therapy I’m already going weekly and will probably be showing them this post. But unfortunately when someone has completely abandoned hope therapy can do very little. I will still welcome any suggestions y’all have.