How do I deal with heart break. I don't know what I'm doing. I'm torturing myself. Hoping wishing and waiting but I'm also being told "I really love him" I'm the support friend. She know I fell for her. But the best I got was "I really like you, I'm sorry but I genuinely love his name" and then says she hates that she's hurting me but still gushes. I have to pretend I'm happy, because a part of me is happy she's happy. Found someone she loves even if it's not me and that's fine. I'll happily be the side character. But also the best description is...I'm constantly choking back sobs. It feels like idk my soul I'd wailing. Idk what to do...just any advice or help would be appreciated bevause idk how much more I can take