My whole life, all of the people who’ve hurt me have been females. My mother is a drunk and has never really been helpful in life. She always told me that there was nothing wrong with me mentally even though there very obviously is and is overall very gaslighty and manipulative. My last girlfriend I had was very physically and emotionally abusive. My sister, while we are close, is honestly just a cold, mean person. I can’t vent to her at all because she just tells me how little she cares about my problems because she perceives them as shallow. My whole life I’ve always felt like a misfit and have always wanted to feel like I belong somewhere, and with age I’ve realized that it’s because of this. I’ve never had a women in my life; my age or older, who was good for me in any way. I can’t tell if it’s me or if it was just that I was dealt a shit hand in life. What’s wrong with me?