I'm an 18-year old (19 this month) guy from butt fuck nowhere Michigan who isn't happy in his current situation and sees no happy way forward. I have little to no relationship with either of my parents and feel as though I'm a constant burden on my grandparents, whom I live with. I'm absolutely riddled with unresolved trauma that I can't seem to escape. I attempted college but was too emotionally unstable to live in that environment without it being a severe mental health risk.

I can't seem to find any spec of happiness in life no matter where I turn. I know it's not an amazing idea to just pack up and leave but the town I live in as a whole makes me so unbelievably unhappy that it hurts to stay here any longer. I just want to get out of here before it's too late.

Yes, I am aware that therapy is a good option for me right now, but there's a very small pool of therapists in town, and the only good one I've ever seen left for a better paying job. I would do online therapy but talking to a screen inexplicably makes me feel worse about myself. So, as of now, I just want to leave.