Okay so I'm a 17 yrs old and recently got into an accident that was completely my fault and due to my stupidity. So the day before I crashed I was with my friend and we were driving back to school from lunch and we got on the highway and before I say anything else it was raining remember that detail so I decided to give the car some gas and there were other cars passing me so that's when I really started being an idiot trying to show off so I proceeded to overtake the other cars and I knew my tires had no tread left but for some reason my brain forgot that detail anyways we were approaching a car on the right and a semi on the left so I took the opening on the right and we were going fast I mean probably 90mph or more in the rain but as soon as I took the lane change to pass the car on the left with the right lane that's when it just swung right and then to the left and I am a pretty good driver when it comes to controlling the car but not for being a reasonable responsible human being but I just could not controll it and it went straight for a ditch but somehow it managed to roll over 3 times and landed on the shoulder lane of the ONCOMING traffic so it landed in the safest place. Me and my friend were both fine and had no serious injuries thank god. My parents work extremely hard recently I just have been a delinquent pos and they payed their hard earned money for the car and I also was super grateful for having it and I wrecked it. Always thought of myself as being a skilled driver and I couldn't save something like this from happening I understand that it could have gone worse but everyday I regret doing what I did and I cannot forgive myself and I miss that car . I have many I intrusive thoughts and it just replays over and over. My life has not really been easy but I feel like I got what I deserved because I've made other mistakes in the past I want to become a better person but I just have so many things going on in my head recently I've even thought about suicide before in my life but never had a plan. I've been battling an unexplained depression recently and I feel like I have also broken the trust of my parents and my siblings of being responsible for things like these.