So I,like an idiot,ended up developing a crush on a friend of mine.

I had planned to tell her at some point but I have anxiety so I needed a bit of time to convince myself.The thing is though,I was hanging out with some friends,including her last wednesday and she ended up saying that she liked one of her other friends who wasnt there at the time.

I basically took this to mean that she wouldnt be interested in me even if I told her.I tried to move on.I thought I was doing well,I was keeping myself busy and trying not to think about it much but today I've just been really upset about it all.

I havent been able to focus on the one lecture I had today and I've been spending the last hour staring at my laptop attempting to start the reasearch paper I have to do but I couldnt.I've got very little motivation to do my normal daily stuff today.

I dont know why I'm so upset about this all of a sudden.I never thought I had much chance to begin with tbh.I have very little self confidence and my anxiety basically only lets me imagine the worst possible outcome of events

I thought I was dealing with it well but today it just felt like it all hit me like a ton of bricks.I just feel like a bit of a loser rn

Thanks to anyone who reads this.I needed to get that all off my chest somehow