I(19) have always had issues with my self esteem, but this time I think I fucked up big time. I have this friend(21) who's been helping me through it a lot, and after a few months of talking with her, I think I started to develop feelings for her. I told her about it through text and she was upset at me for it, for good reason too. After something we did a while ago (which I won't discuss here for privacy reasons), we started talking less. At first I thought it was due to our conflicting schedules, but she told me she had been purporsefully avoiding me so I wouldn't develop feelings for her. She still wants to be friends but wants me to go to therapy ASAP because she thinks my feelings for her may just be codependency. And to be honest, I think she may be right. I haven't answered to what she texted me back, mostly because I just don't know how to respond to all of it. This situation has got me doubting everything about myself and I don't know how to navigate it. I can't talk to anyone I know about it either, and I don't have any money to try therapy. I really don't know what to do with myself anymore. I need help.