You waited to end things with me and strung me along for months. My friends and I planned trips that you said you just weren’t feeling. Then you go behind my back and make plans with someone I introduced you to. It’s not my business but you never were someone to care much about my emotions. Always indecisive except when it came to doing things that hurt me. I let you back in with promises of nothing and no strings just to be friends but you made it seem like much more. Day after day goes by and I’m left here everyday with more questions. Questions I’ll never get answers to. My anxiety fills as the space between us widens. They say what goes around comes around so why is it when you’re in my head I’m not in yours. I don’t want to be with you anymore because I’ve learned my lesson I just want you to notice I’m not there. I don’t want you to be in constant pain like I am, I just want to know I’m not entirely alone. Although, I will admit I do have some good days, yet every once in a while I like to put on songs that remind me of you. You’re not the same you were before but a drug named nostalgia makes me want to sink into my bed and lay there. Not crying and not with anyone else, just lay there in perfect silence remembering. I still haven’t opened the last message you sent me and I’m not sure when or if I ever will. I smile throughout the day never mentioning the hole you left in my chest. I can’t talk to anyone and deep down I want to scream. I’ve thought about channeling my energy into something productive but somehow I never have the motivation to do anything. I hope I don’t have to see you anymore not because I don’t want to but because I don’t know what my reaction would be.