Its been like what, four years since my first and last girlfriend. It was 8 months and the very first girl i ever asked out, it ended because i got scared how long it went and broke up. Ever since then ive been experiencing hell, i have not dated anyone since, every girl ive meet ghosts me, leaves me on seen, and one even used me for sex. I feel like im going fucking insane like its them against me. I DONT KNOW WHATS WRONG. Ive given my whole convos to my friends and they say im too “nice of a guy” like wtf does that fucking mean. Ever since then i started developing a hate… a hate for couples and even the opposite gender and its scaring me. Its like I’ve improved myself in every way i can i go to gym and improve my body and get a job nothing is fucking enough i just want to stop. I want to stop feeling this fucking shit and die. Im tired i cant function like this anymore.