Why can I scream and yell?! Why can I just tell you how I feel in the rawest way possible but still love you. Why are you the only one that gets to play “the victim” here! I want to be so vulnerable and fight for mine but I also hate feeling like my frustrations aren’t valid and feeling like that makes me even more mad. I shouldn’t be a problem for me to question you on certain things that make me feel “insecure” but you think I’m just trying to dwell on shit and starts fights?! I fucking HATE crying because it makes me feel weak! I hate being vulnerable also because I don’t want to feel dumb later on and regret it. I deleted all socials to go on a cleanse because I need to heal my heart and emotions and I can’t message this mf my feelings so Reddit is the next best mf thing. Idc if this doesn’t get views or whatever the lingo is on here. I just needed to get THIS out on something and I refuse to tweet my fucking feelings. Idk what our “break” means and I pray it isn’t an excuse for him to go and do fuck shit but I pray it’ll actually help. I don’t want to lose him. I know this is all over the place but just think how crazy this fucking brain is right now. Thanks for reading my rant