My ex dumped me in September last year. I was absolutely devastated. I could barely move myself from my bed and was certainly neglecting my responsibilities. Two weeks later, she had dropped off a notebook at my house while I was at work where she journaled each day since we had broken up, and how each day since then, she had been a miserable wreck. Needless to say, we got back together, and I was elated. Fast forward to February. She dumped me again the day after Valentine's Day. She said she just didn't love me, and wanted to be deeply in love with someone, and she wasn't. She had a son, whose dad wasn't involved in the slightest and I had basically taken over that role. Within a 5 minute phone call, I lost them both. Today, I found out that she hadn't loved me since December, and was basically dating out me out of pity, and that she had already found someone else. I don't know how to cope. A month later, and I still love her and the kid with every fiber of my being, and she's already moved on. I'm 30 years old, no kids, and this is my millionth failed relationship. Nothing is fun anymore. I have no appetite. I can barely work when I'm at work. I don't know how to socialize. All of my friends are married or in a relationship. I put in 99% of the effort in that relationship, and now I'm the one left miserable and crying every 20 minutes. I don't know how to meet people other than at bars which I don't want to go to. All I want to do is lay in my bed and die.