It’s been five months since he broke up with me. It’s not a conscious thought to remember every month that on the 14th/15th is another month since that day but it comes back to haunt me every month.

I say the 14th/15th because it was on the night of August 14th that he brought it to my attention that it wasn’t working out and he didn’t have extra money to hang out with me. It was 11 pm that night and I had to be up at 4 am for work. I woke up to his message asking me if he should remove our status on Facebook. I asked him what he was talking about and he said our relationship, changing it to single. I didn’t realize I was broken up with until this moment so while I’m walking to work I’m asking him why and if there was things to do to change it. He said I was unhappy and we’d see each other less so what was the point? I spent that shift crying all day and I finally switched the status myself.

Every month now I’m reminded of how low Travis made me feel. My first boyfriend broke my heart through text. It’s an awful thing to remember each month but I do. I remember the brokenness he left me with.