I don't have any luck with guys due to my weight, and I don't have any female friends that I can vent to. I'm tired of being pushed away and ridiculed. I want a guy who Is loving, protective and caring- as a ugly girl where can I find that?? The answer is no where. No one wants me :( - my 31m ex of 4 years is dating some other girl now and they seem perfect for each other while all I attract is dirty hookups. No wants me as their girlfriend- they just want to fuck me and hide me away. I've began self harming again as the loneliness is to much to bare and I can't bare it all on my own.

How do.i cope with my reality when my brain tricks me into believing that there really is somebody special for me where I can feel accepted, warm and safe. My brain lies as looks are very important in a relationship, and I know I'm destined to be alone. I don't know if I can cope anymore 😕

It's getting to the point where I'm posting nude pics of myself just to attract some men to talk to out of pure loneliness so I have no dignity left. I miss being loved and protected.. I miss when i had value to someone that once loved me. Oh well, I guess some attractive girls are born lucky, and I got the short end of the muddy stick